Speluska's Blog

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Nobody but you


If you don’t like how your days look like,

grab a mic’.

Sing yourself a life that fits you,

don’t let unhappiness to beat you.

Stop negging and begging,

you have to do the dragging.

Make changes,

welcome strangers.


March 14, 2013 Posted by | Poetry | , | Leave a comment

Create your life!

Did you miss me? I felt bad not writing anything new, but I have a lame excuse for you – I’ve been working most of the time lately… I felt pushed in all that, I hate not having any time to do things I want (even if that’s only doing sports and writing new posts and reading other blogs, spend some time with people I want…), there were just so many bad news according to the people I know and I felt depressed. Yeah, I have these periods once in a while. So when I came home from work all I wanted to do was to sleep and watch movies, just not to think too much. When I don’t have time to breathe I don’t feel good and who would change the way I feel if not me? I guess working seven days per week is too much for me. Now I’m going to have a short vacation in Italy where I’m meeting some people I met in Lisbon which will be supernice! What will happen after that?  I’m going to attend International debate seminar Slovenia, debating is my passion so I can’t wait to learn more about it! And I truly need to focus on my thesis and get it done. Than I want to go to study abroad, there are some problems with that but I guess the sky is the limit and staying in one place isn’t an option for me. Those things keep me going and they motivate me. What will happen next, where will I work etc…I think that if you follow your dreams it comes naturally…if not there is a big chance to end up as  miserable person unhappy with who they are and what they do. So it’s time for some changes! I have lost my smile for a while and I want it back! I’m not happy in the situation I’m in right now If I think carefully  the best time of my life was living in Lisbon with amazing people, completely independent…Sometimes family gives you more bad than good days and since I worry too much for me it’s better to be away from all that. Here I’m living with my relatives and that doesn’t suit me. And working with hypocrites as well. Sometimes I feel like I’m always in search of something.

I guess I’m not able to stay in situation that I feel not confident with and say “It’s life. Face it.”

For me it’s more like: “It’s my life. Create it!”

I came across with an option that seems perfect for me: studying from January to June in  Helsingør – Denmark at International people’s College. I have to think how I could reach that. The good thing is that it would cost me only 950 euros for accommodation, food and tuition fee… So as far as money is concerned there is no problem.

October 25, 2010 Posted by | Thoughts about life | , , , , | 1 Comment

Even if I can’t see it doesn’t mean that I’m blind

That sentence might seem pointless to some of you. What I wanted to say is hidden between the lines. Even if things aren’t perfect the way they are, it’s how we see them that makes them good or bad. The fact is that we notice when something isn’t right when looking at other people’s lifes. But have we seen ours? Or do we just follow our routine day by day? Do we dare to make changes and admit that we need them to feel alive? Open your eyes and look deeply into yourself, don’t just criticize others.

I started making some changes…Some things are impossible to change…Impossibilities are merely the things which we have not yet learned…

September 19, 2010 Posted by | Thoughts about life | , | 1 Comment