I end up crying,

it feels like dying.

My wings won’t fly no more,

I feel like a fucking whore.

I don’t won’t to love ever again,

it seems like there is no decent man.

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Waking up for me always is a challenge to do,

even if I have a meeting with you.

Firstly I need to remember what day it is,

can someone help me please?

Now I know that the name of todays day is Sunday,

my classes are on Monday.

Secondly I try to recall what I was dreaming about,

oh my dear dream catcher why don’t you shout?

Thirdly I check my phone,

no messages neither calls – I feel so alone.

Now I need to get up,

dress up,

lets put on some make-up.

My warm bed will get cold without me,

a cold Sunday is waiting for me.

A cold morning is quickly turning to working Sunday,

trust me – I can’t wait for Monday.

Slovenia is a small country that borders on Italy, Austria, Hungary and Croatia.

It isn’t rare that people confuse Slovenia with Slovakia and vice versa… It doesn’t even make us angry. We just think that people are ignorant and not that our country is to small and not important enough to be known. Only when we say that Slovenia was part of Yugoslavia people say: “Oh, yes! I heard about Yugoslavia!” So this is link – you tell people the connection with Slovenia and Yugoslavia and the problem is solved. One of my colleagues got a brilliant idea.

Slovenia should be called SEXY,  that stands for Slovenia EX Yugoslavia!

Your eyes.

Your smile.

I could die.

There is nothing I feel for you,

You are no longer my baby blue.

I am sorry to feel this way,

I swear I wanted to stay.

Things change so rapidly,

It is not a big psychology.

You could not give me what I needed,

I often felt like being cheated.

I still care for you in a way,

As a friend if you know what I would like to say.

It did not work out for us,

Now we both should catch another bus.

She is like the air for him.

Not so important,

but so unseen.

Last week I’ve been in Belgium and Netherlands with my University. We’ve seen Brussels, Rotterdam, Haag and Amsterdam. There is a photo from Amsterdam as you might have guessed so far… This city was the one I liked most!

I know it has been a while since I last wrote anything. There has been some changes in my life and it hasn’t been easy. But what I did was listening to my heart and just went for it. For new life that awaits me. I got the feeling that I’m not as happy as I could be. I want to laugh and shine. I live my life the way I want!

I have been thinking… Do you think that human being is better than animals? The same? Or worse?

I believe that we feel the same, we want to do things, try them, there is this simple thing called instinct that makes a desire.   What do we do with that desire? Do we try to deny it or do we make it real? Do we act like it didn’t happen? Now here is how we are different form animals. Animals do things they want to do and they don’t care if this will cause any impact on them or others. Human beings try to focus on someone or something and keep it there, with them. This is why they think carefully before they will do what they want to do in a certain moment. They think on long-term. Or if they can’t or don’t want to let things be and stay with fantasies they follow their desire and make it come true.  I’m sure you have all tried this. But I wonder how many people feel guilty, how many people don’t care and live further on without any guilt and how many of you tell other people what you have done? Did you tell them because it is easier for you or because you respect them so much that you think its fair to tell them? I guess it depends what kind of person you are. By saying so I don’t mean that you are either good or bad. We are just human beings. But we are hypocrites! This is how we are different from animals! Only if you do follow your instinct and if you are ok with it you aren’t hypocrite, at least not to yourself. But since we live in a society with a certain rules it is very difficult to do so.

It’s not how long your life is, its how alive you feel!

Please make yourself happy…

I don’t know what makes you happy, I’m not sure I know it for myself, but I’m trying to be loyal to myself…Whoever I am.

There comes a certain point in life,

When you need to fight for your right.

They will try to push you away,

They will try to put you on the very first train.

What you should do is stay,

Make them see that what they do is not ok.

People who stay on the edge,

Are a perfect catch.

They make the revolutions happen,

They take away from the bad guys their weapon.

So it goes for revolutions as for small conclusions.

In life you should do what you feel is right,

Please do not follow those on the no brain side.